On fri, 14 oct 2011

Went to school just for 2 hours of iac, and for the ntuc walk. Right after, I went home and meet my classmates for PRAWNINGS! how excited I can be, and of course, I caught alot of prawns. Due to busy Me, I won't be able to eat the prawn I caught, and I went to look for bbybf. Woke him up and down to pasirris for his friends birthday partyy. Home around 12 plus am.



Does anyone feel the same as me?,

I feel so unhappy, like for no reason? I started not texting bbybf. Restricted myself from asking him question I want to know. restricted alot of me. Staying happily. Maybe bbybf thinks it's nothing. Everytime I feel this way, he feels that it's normal.

After more than a year's relationship, then I feel: bbybf and me are girl/boy friends but look like friends. Secondly, I want a relationship that seems like we are both friends and lovers. Friends as in you tell me how you feel, and not aft telling your friends then you tell me. Or not, it's another fact that you won't tell me any. I remember what Jan told me, don't you think he treats friends better than girlfriend. I AGREE. And I don't know if I am silly to still hang on to it, and think you will change. It takes time, I know.

I feel so complicated. ;(

"I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw. I'm scared of what I did, of who I am."
"It's sad not to be loved, but it's much sadder not being able to love."
"Love knows no boundaries."