Happy 18 month baby.

I admit that I hate today, seriously. I choose to avoid what I doesn't wanna see, what I doesnt wanna hear. But even If I tell you, will you ever notice it, or even change for me? I know it's suppose to be a happy thing for us, but upon what I heard from you that you don't know today's 2nd. It pricks alittle in heart.... All you do is okok, I'm free. But... Did you ever spend a little time on me?, others never know the reason why I'm always complaining, but you should know why. But I bet you don't know. I really wanna be a happygirl. But... But, what can I do? To make you notice. If I tell you, I fear you might feel frustrated. So I'm gonna bottle up everything im unhappy. You always think that everything to you, it doesn't hurt, saying what for do I need to bottle up, but... You ain't me. You don't know what little thing you said, have actually hurt me a lot. Not a little.. This is you, and that is me. Yes, I'm being paranoid... I need prove when it comes to our promise...

Sometimes I even wonder why. But I won't ever get my answer... I just hope you spend your time equally. :'(

If ever my time and effort spend on you, do you appreciate or take for granted?

"I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw. I'm scared of what I did, of who I am."
"It's sad not to be loved, but it's much sadder not being able to love."
"Love knows no boundaries."