5 feb 2016, 9:32PM
Friday, February 5, 2016 @ ehsw life..
On the last week of internship, i realize some things i never thought would be.On the date of 25 jan 2016, he announce to the whole world, he got attach to a girl.
My whole world came crashing down.
Yes, it's me that gave up the relationship, i dont regret. because i already have tolerated him for really 4 years plus. And i dont see the need to feel sad because he got a girlfriend already.
But i am always feeling the unfairness to me.
Life had been unfair to me isn't it?
All the guys are the same.
Even when i thought he wont.
He moved on, i feel happy.
but seeing him loving someone else, hurts.
He never understands me.
he said he grew up.
Should i feel happy because somehow i am the one suffer being with him, and there that girl goes happily with him because he said he've grown up. If he could grow up when we were back then, we won't end up this way, isn't it?
He dug his own grave, he was sad, he moved on, and here i am feeling devastated.
The sadness i've got, i couldn't imagine, because it's the same sadness, same tears i cried all over for him and i still do..
On the other hand, i don't deny i do all kind of things to act happy, when im hurting emotionally, he is there happy with his new girl.
crying everynight, is it because i regretted?
I ended everything on the mid of november 2014.
if you did grow up, and know what i want, we wouldn't have ended up this way and would have been still together for 6 years now. being with me and being with her, you seems more happier. :/
